I'm Listening

I feel alien.
I feel different.
and I feel apart.
because I don't seem to be like everyone else.
because differences are maximised in my mind.
because few, too few, offer to build bridges
and so I have to, cross my heart,
cross these worlds apart and render distance inexistent.

I have to be,
philosophy,
yet have to live,
lie, to fit.
how is this a viable option?
when there are no words,
but those that don't hook onto others.
what language can I speak
so you can understand?
that I feel alone.
that I feel lost.
that I feel like I am a battle without its fighters.
that I know there is no war, but I feel it's worth fighting for.

Teach me to change my habits.
I'm listening.