Such A Desire

I'm going on the path of feelings once more, in the hall of exploration. It's like I've got a bridge almost pouring within out towards the screen, my canvas. So this feeling that I want to express shall cross this bridge and be communicated. That's right, grow legs and walk. Or slither.

I've met many people in my life, and I shall yet meet more. There's people that stand out though, for some reason. One of them arouses a very strange feeling within me. I'm not sure if I can get it to cross the bridge but here I am trying to lure it. I want it revealed. I wonder if this sentiment is a response to who they are, who I am, or the image that I have of them, because there is a difference between the first two and the last. Who we are is the same. But I would like to know if how I feel is due to the recognition of myself, maybe a hidden untouched part of me, within the other person, or if it an attraction of a different kind? How is this related to me? I've been trying to guess, and so I make the call now to receive an answer. I won't know the reason for the feeling until I'm ready to, and that's fine, but what the feeling actually is... I'd like to know that. Just because I don't know what to do with it. Some would say... just feel it. It is a feeling, after all. I feel feelings. But people act on feelings. I don't want to do that, I want to act on what I know, which is sure - and thus the decisions made are based on a solid unbreakable foundation. Feelings to me are more of a puzzle piece, ready to be placed in the right spot under the glass pane on the coffee table. They are like directions on a map, they tell me where I could go, but my going should be based on my knowledge of what I'm going there for.

Have I tempted you to cross the bridge? I sound like a devil... why do I need to tempt things? I don't, that's an illusion. So the bridge is set in place. It might come straight onto the canvas, but it first has to pass through my mind, which I am un-tunneling. I might not see the answer. The bridge is to a feeling, so I will feel it and I'll know the direction it's going. It is within.